I just completely resent the fact that I am being punished for last semester. I know a stupid 2.5 from Chito is a horrible, horrible thing but I don’t think it warrants this much chaining-to-the-house grounding. I am so disappointed in myself because not so long ago I wouldn’t have let this happen; I wouldn’t even have let it be alarming. I’ve lost so many opportunities and I feel so behind, design and work wise, it’s getting (a lot) depressing. I miss my work so incredibly much and I don’t know how much more of this mundane living I can take.

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   I long for the thrill of creating concepts, sharing them with some of the most creative minds of my generation, executing plans and sending messages to anyone who wants to listen. I miss The Seven Hour Introduction to the meeting with people who think differently and aren’t afraid to take it two point five intellectual steps further. I miss the freedom of art and the recognition that different perspectives are okay and not abnormal at all.

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   Most of all, I guess I miss the opportunity to maybe reach someone and relate to him/her in a human to human way with the messages I’ve sent through my work.

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Kay enough self pity time to drown sorrow away with music and the internet. Talk to me or sthn!

EDIT: SWEET JESUS, the paragraphs won’t work on the site. I’m going to add a dash in between the paragraphs para di nakabubulag